Friday, May 11, 2012


"What you do speaks so loudly I can't hear what you are saying." -Henry Adams

Thoughts 6 Weeks and Two Days Away

I have been super emotional the last couple of weeks, seems anything can make me cry.  The thing I am most 'hormonal' about at the moment is picturing kissing the boys bye, leaving to go to the hospital to have baby girl. Not that I am not excited about this new addition and I can rationalize how the love will be abundant...but I am emotional none the less.  For almost three and half years life has been me and my boys.  Traveling and navigating this road together.  And I am little sad, if I am being honest, that this trip is coming to an end.  I find myself wanting to squeeze them more, tell them how much I love them more, spend every second with them, and just give them a cookie whenever they want one!!!  I keep going back to the same book before nap time, and every time I read it to them I cry.  And they will say, "happy tears momma?"  And I say "yes, happy tears baby."  Today they both laid their little heads on my big tummy and listened to the I cried.
Wherever You Are
by Nancy Tillman

I wanted you more
than you ever will know, 
so I sent love to follow
wherever you go. 

It's high as you wish it.  It's quick as an elf. 
You'll never outgrow stretches itself!

So climb any mountain...
climb up to the sky!
My love will find you. 
My love can fly!

Make a big splash! Go out on a limb!
My love will find you.  My love can swim!

It never gets lost, never fades, never ends...
if you're working...
or playing...
or sitting with friends. 

You can dance 'til you're dizzy...
paint 'til your blue...
There's no place, not one,
that my love can't find you. 

And if someday you're lonely,
or someday you're sad,
or you strike out a baseball,
or think you've been bad...
just lift up your face, feel the wind in your hair. 
That's me, my sweet baby, my love is right there. 

In the green of the the smell of
the the clouds floating by...
at the top of a the sound
crickets make at the end of the day...

"You are loved. You are loved. You are
loved," they all say. 

My love is so high, and so wide and
so deep, it's always right there, even
when you're asleep.  

So hold your head high
and don't be afraid
to march to the front
of your own parade. 

If you're still my small babe
or you're all the way grown,
my promise to you
is you're never alone.  

You are my angel, my darling,
my star...and my love will find you,
wherever you are. 

You are loved.  

Monday, May 7, 2012

Bug Bites and Train Storytellin' and History Festival

On Thursday something tried to eat my sweet Paxton up!! The bites were down his arm and behind, but the ones on his hand were the worst. I initially thought it wasnt too big a deal, every kid gets bug bites. But by the end of the day Thursday his little hand was swollen and the redness was getting a lot worse, one was even starting to puss. So I spoke with the nurse on call and she said we should go to a Vanderbilt walk-in clinic. When Aaron came home from work, Pax and I headed that way. Poor little guy was running a fever and had to get a steroid...but I think the arm will survive! Doctor said the bug bites (especially spider and tick bites) have been awful this season because of such a mild winter. So check your kiddos for ticks this summer!!  YUCK!

Aaron always comes up with the funnest things to do on the weekends.  Poor guy hasnt played golf in a year, but his boys love spending time with him!! We headed out to Columbia, TN on Saturday to a train festival.  The boys were beside themselves.  There were the cutest little trains that went around a long, winding track, the rides were 15 minutes long.  They went through miniature tunnels and over bridges.  So cool.  We had to promise Pax we would come back very soon, and then realized the trains dont run again until September!! Whoops!!!  Only bummer was that I couldnt ride because I am more than six months pregnant, their insurance wouldnt allow it.  So the pictures are just at the beginning and end of the ride.
The train station.  I was sitting on a wood ledge here and the train conductor came over and told me two copperheads were seen on the ledge the day before.  You have never seen a pregnant lady jump up so fast!!!!
The wait was an hour to ride, surprisingly, the boys did great in line.  We were getting close and Paxton was SOOO excited!!

All the trains were different, I think we got the best one.  The boys each  got their  own compartment.  
Kellen was ready to GO!!!
My boys pulling back into the station!

About 15 minutes after lunch!!  

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Weekend at the Lake

My mom rented a lake house this weekend on Lake Guntersville and invited the whole family.  My aunts and uncles, cousins and their children were all there.  We played t-ball and soccer in the backyard, fished off the boat dock, ate until we couldnt move, made homemade ice cream, and just relaxed.  We had a blast, cant wait to do it again next year!!
My sweetness on the dock!
Kellen, sittin on the dock! 
Hanging with daddy on the boat!
Paxton super concentrated on holding his fishing  pole.
My cousin Wendi's daughter, Jordan.  The kids love her, they call her JoJo.  And  my cousin Wes'  little cutie pie, Ila. 

So after a long day at the lake I look over to see Kellen completely passed out on the boat sitting up!! So funny!! 
And five minutes later I look over at Pax...totally passed out too.  I said  this had to be Weekend at Bernie's  The Toddler Version!!!!

I took my opportunity to get some sweet cuddle time with my exhausted toddlers!!